A letter to thank calories for all that they do rather than continue to condemn and fear them.
This morning I woke up to a rainy, drizzly day. If you know me, this is my absolute favorite weather. It means hot coffee and cozy sweaters, sitting in a cafe or maybe curling up and watching a movie. Waking up to the pattering of rain on the roof, I was in a great mood.… Continue reading I Choose Recovery Today, Sorry ED
Mornings are by far my favorite time of the day. I love waking up before everyone else and enjoying a cup of coffee in the silence of a new day. The morning is when I leave time for myself to actually sit down and rest. It is the time when my head is the clearest… Continue reading Mornings
I have been thinking a lot about happiness and the difference between my happiness before versus during the eating disorder. Before, I was truly happy; it was an in the moment, beautiful kind of happiness. I would wake up each morning excited for a new day and I would go to bed content. I… Continue reading Happiness
I am sick of trying to shrink myself just to please other people, just to be accepted. I am tired of trying to achieve a perfectly flat stomach and an entirely unrealistic thigh gap. I am realizing that this so called "goal" will destroy me, that it will keep me sick, that it will lead… Continue reading Wake up and make a decision.
My first day back in residential was yesterday and so far I am doing okay. Meals have gone fine and I completed my supplement last night. Needless to say, it is so much easier than the first time. I have a better mindset and I am more recovery focused this time around. Everything seems just… Continue reading Back in residential: Update
Tomorrow, I am going back into residential after days of endless debate and contemplation. My choices were either outpatient or residential and my eating disorder more than anything wanted to choose outpatient. Ed told me that I would be fine, that I am more weight restored than I have been since getting anorexia, that I… Continue reading My decision.