This morning I woke up to a rainy, drizzly day. If you know me, this is my absolute favorite weather. It means hot coffee and cozy sweaters, sitting in a cafe or maybe curling up and watching a movie. Waking up to the pattering of rain on the roof, I was in a great mood.… Continue reading I Choose Recovery Today, Sorry ED
Mornings are by far my favorite time of the day. I love waking up before everyone else and enjoying a cup of coffee in the silence of a new day. The morning is when I leave time for myself to actually sit down and rest. It is the time when my head is the clearest… Continue reading Mornings
Yesterday, my family and I headed out in the early morning for a road trip to explore Minnesota, a state we visit annually in the summer. We travelled down roads lined with looming pine trees and passed glimmering lakes that sparkled under the morning sun. We stopped at some landmark destinations, including two lighthouses and… Continue reading A Piece of Chocolate
For me, sticking to my meal plan after my first discharge from residential did not go according to plan. I couldn’t understand why, I had it all mapped out - I had timers set on my phone and specific times when I would eat meals. I even went grocery shopping and methodically planned dinners with… Continue reading A Subtle Shift – Update
I am discharging from residential and entering into outpatient treatment as of this Tuesday. Though I am extremely nervous, I feel so much more equipped and prepared than my first discharge. I now understand that recovery outside of treatment is not going to be easy or linear. It is going to be an uphill battle… Continue reading Core beliefs
I have been thinking a lot about happiness and the difference between my happiness before versus during the eating disorder. Before, I was truly happy; it was an in the moment, beautiful kind of happiness. I would wake up each morning excited for a new day and I would go to bed content. I… Continue reading Happiness
I am sick of trying to shrink myself just to please other people, just to be accepted. I am tired of trying to achieve a perfectly flat stomach and an entirely unrealistic thigh gap. I am realizing that this so called "goal" will destroy me, that it will keep me sick, that it will lead… Continue reading Wake up and make a decision.