I am sorry.
I am sorry for all the things I have done to you this past year. I am sorry for exercising you to the point of exhaustion and ignoring your urgent and apparent cues to stop and rest.
I am sorry for constantly comparing you to others; for never quite being satisfied with you. I am sorry for setting impossible goals and standards for you, and berating you when you don’t live up to these unreachable expectations.
Body, I am so sorry for starving you, you did not deserve that restriction. I am sorry for ignoring you when you craved real food and not just an apple or a piece of gum.
I am sorry for getting you to the state you are in now – weak and frail and unhealthy. But please know that I am doing everything in my power to change that, to make you strong and healthy again. Please forgive me because I am not perfect, and I will slip up and fall down along the way.
Despite my mistakes, you deserve recovery because you have done nothing wrong. Body, I am sorry that I punished you for no reason. Please forgive me.